I am a 50-50 extrovert introvert according to the psych tests they did at British Airwasys. They loved that I was a 50-50 extro intro split.. and did a different test to see if it came out the same and it did. Well I AM a Gemini what did they expect!
So as much as I LOVE to talk, I am quite happy being silent too. But when I talk I do talk with passion and super fast... well you can get more words per minute! lol!
What I found shocking from not speaking, was how FANTASTIC this speak it app was. OMG if you ever lose your voice, please download it... for a long term speech app, they need to have a conversation page skype style so you can press return rather than pressing speak it all the time but apart from that! I don't think I would have survived without it. It was the best few bucks I have EVER spent! The accents were life like too, not too bad, not robotic and pretty good actually....
Ok, well the few things I found shocking from not being able to talk for two weeks was:
- How people perceived you, like people you encounter on a daily basis.
- How willing your friends were to help or not help...
- How people try and take advantage of you financially, I had one person try and short change me thinking because I couldn't speak... that she could do it and i can't complain! Well! she wasn't prepared for my iphone app or my Ipad to come out and me tap out a SUITABLE response back to her!!!
- How you get IGNORED!
- How you get taken advantage of......
- How you can't shout for help
- How even with the app, you can't convey the nuances or your feelings as you do when you have a "voice"
- How isolating it really is... thank goodness for this app... but even with that... WOW! it made me want to cry!
- How rude people are to you...
- How people see your not speaking as an annoyance to them!
- How they automatically think you're "ill"
- The ILL treatment I got at hospital after the operation and I couldn't COMPLAIN!
- Or when the surgeon came around after and asked if I had any questions!!! (I'm like are you a total idiot!) he wasn't ready for my pre printed questions was he lol!
I even had one man, we live out in the country, and I pulled over on a road that has 5 people a day on it. It's a dead end road. This NICE person pulled up next to me... I just got a call and pulled turned off the main road to this dead end road to reply back and play the pre recorded message to say phone my husband.... This man asked if I was ok, so I gave him the thumbs up... he then asked if he could talk to me... and I shook my head no.... He said put my window down NOW! and talk to him or he'd call hte police as he thought I had been STRANGLED from not being able to talk! Anyway there were like 100000000000000000 mosquitoes outside... and I was like arghghghg. I was a bit annoyed by this stage as I didn't want the mosquitoes in my car, they love Biting me! and well I had just got the pre-recorded message to play down the phone to the person who had just rung me... so I had to delete that to find the other pre recorded message and then add to it to say that I was fine and can't talk from my throat operation. By this stage he's shouting he's dialling 911! So i opened my window a smidgen and held my phone outside and played the recording to him.... he was like OH! so you're ok? I'm nodding... no one has hurt you and I'm shaking my head... no... meanwhile 100 mosquito's came in the car! I couldn't even scream when they bit me :((
I was thankful that he stopped to see if I was ok as in the UK they would just drive by... but I think it was the frustration of not being able to communicate... something that we all take for granted.
How often do you think how lucky we are to have speech? Well I went home and squashed my Oatie, as he can speak but it's sometimes unclear and not many spontaneous words and he expresses basic feeling but not the nuances that my other kids do... like the detail. I am thankful that Oatie has that... but my not speaking for 2 weeks has really opened my eyes to how my aunt must have felt who had some strokes and degenerative diseases and Oatie and his friends who are special like him.
Please please please, do not speak at all if you lose your voice... just don't do it... download "Speak it" from the app store if you are an apple user! So many accents you can choose from!
I'm hoping my operation isn't a failure as my friend and I went to see Bridesmaids 3 days after I could talk again and I hadn't laughed so much in ages... she wanted to see it during my silence and I'm glad I didn't as I would have broken it for sure!
The Ear Defenders and Tylenol are for my friends who I've been madly tapping away at my keyboard on my speak it app for two weeks and now catching up properly....